challenge yourself.

assalamualaikum :)

awak2 semua sihat?
for me, just a minor headache. normal for me actually.
sobs.
tak apelah! hari ni mahu bercerita tentang perubahan.
mengapa perlu berubah?
apa yang mendorong kita untuk berubah?
n mcm mana mahu berubah?

well basically i'm not trying to give a speech about this lah kan ;p
tapi ini berdasarkan pengalaman diri sendiri.
kata orang pengalaman sendiri lebih berharga dan lebih berinspirasi
untuk kita hayati :)

dari sekolah sy mmg jenis yang tak boleh duduk diam.
sy kene buat something selain dari belajar.
for me.. it's borinnggg. eheh.
tapi masalahnya.. sy pemalu. gosh. mungkin ramai tak tahu.
sy mmg pemalu since sekolah. tapi sy banyak berangan nak masuk
pertandingan ni lah, nak wakil sekolah masuk itulah..
haih.
so.. i decided to give a try for things that i THINK i like.
for me, masa sekolah adalah masa utk kita cuba semua
untuk tahu apa sebenarnya minat kita.
i gave a shot for debate, debat,menyanyi, pantun, syair, ping pong,
softball, kaunseling, etc..
dalam byk2.. mmg banyak la yg kureng kan. haha.
dah kate nak cube semua. huu.
i'm no good in sports. sobs.
but i found that, i'm more into arts.
kebudayaan dan bahasa.
that is soo me!
jadi, bila dah tahu apa yg kita minat..
senanglah utk kita ikut haluan tu.

n yes, sy admit sy MAYBE agak skema.
since skola org panggil cemtuh.
idk is it a good one, or the bad one. ceh.
maybe that's y sy nak sgt berubah,
cuba semua benda yg bukan akademik kat skolah
so that people will not called me as a nerd. or maybe, shy girl.
huahh.

then bila dah masuk uni, i want to make something. i want to change some more.
i want challenges.
so i registered myself to kelab estetika budaya (KEB) which i know,
i'll love it.
di situlah, segala minat sy berkaitan budaya berkembang.
basically, dlm team tu ada penyanyi, MUA, penari, MC.
sy haruslah menyanyi kan. ahah.
n disinilah sy ketemu sama my unbiological brother, annaseaskey :)
annas menari n MUA. so we've been grown up with this environment
n it's so fun n exciting!

gambar b4 perform. annas 2 dari kanan :)

then, sy rasa sy perlu berubah untuk tambah pengalaman lagi.
this is when i joined Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar (MPP).
ok so this is a LOT more serious than just singing or performing in front of the stage.
i have to sacrifice my time with friends, my weekend, my semester break.
but in return, i got a precious experience :')
for me, if you want to success, u should put a lot of effort and sacrifices.

time bertanding dulu. muke besar tak hengat. sobs.

ami, nik and nad. time ni kat office lama MPP. we have to deal
with students and Hal Ehwal Pelajar (HEP) like, everydayy.
sampai kadang2 balik hostel pun pukul 2 pagi mcm tu sbb nak settlekan keje.
mmg stress. mmg menangis. tp entah lah. maybe sbb kita buat dgn
minat, dan ikhlas.. after that, it wouldn't be a matter at all :)

nak buat event bagai kat uni pun ade yg MPP kene organize kan.
coz tuh mmg diantara tugas2 kami. so selagi dewan tak settle,
tak rehearsal, kupon utk students belum settle.. mmg tak balik hostel lah.
sobs. tp takpe, it turns out sy jadi lebih matang. n lebih confident bile
nak deal dgn students or org atasan.
n pernah skali tu, masa event kitaorg buat, tak cukup persembahan.
on the spot sy perform kat depan tuh haa. mmg mcm nak pengsan tgk
students ramai. keskes.

tuh masa diploma. masa degree, which is now..
i starts with modelling pulak.
mmg jauh betul tersimpang sebenarnya. uhuk.
entah lah. i guess what makes me try all this is because
i want to challenge myself.
selalu ckp kat diri sendiri ,
"kau blh buat ke?"
"boleh. kot. Insya-Allah.."
"buat tengok. tak payah nak kot. kot. sangat lahhhh"
huaaa. kene marah dgn diri sendiri. tssk.
tp bile berlumba dgn diri sendiri.. kita takkan rugi pun :)

kesimpulannya, cuba untuk cuba semua yang kita minat.
from there, we'll know our potential.
tak semestinya kita cuba 10, 1 tuh melekat.
kadang2 satu pun macam tak ngam ngn diri kita.
that's y.. keep on trying.
we can't stop.
bila jatuh, jgn menangis. bangun. dan teruskan perjalanan.
that's the best :)

btw, ramai tanye knape tak nyanyi dah sekarang.
mm. sy mmg dah taknak menyanyi. n i decided that.
harap korang fahamm :)
here, video2 utk tatapan korang kalau nak dengar.
tp ini time dulu lah. hehe.
sile2 lah ye ! :)

ini di uitm jengka bersame baloo. time malam alunan gemersik. we won! :)



n ini time kat palace of golden horses. perform for UM students :)

segale apa yg diatas hanyalah bertujuan utk berkongsi cerita dan
pengalaman. sharing is caring kot. tehee.

till then,
have a nice weekend people!