on behalf of my heart.

There are times when i found myself very emotional and i just can’t help it. To be seen as a weak person is something that i hate. I cried. And sometimes i will just stay silent. But remember, silence is often the loudest cry as it hurts the heart until you don’t feel like crying, still it cause your heart a major heartache.  

Then i came across to this quote :

“If Allah brings you to it, He will bring you through it. Have faith.”

Masya-Allah, how can i just forget Him during this time! I was so busy seeking for people’s advice but i just ignored Him, the one i should seek for opinion and advise in the first place. Astaghfirullah.  I thank to Allah, for giving me such a calming and comforting advise :

“Be sure we shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods,

Lives and the fruits (of your toil), but give glad tidings to those who

Patiently persevere,”

[Qur’an 2:155]

It does feels good, isn’t it? I should put away those negative vibes as it might influence my daily life and my future plan. I should think positively. In any way. Positive thinking isn’t about expecting the best thing to happen everytime, it is about accepting that whatever happens is good for this moment, and then making the best of it. Stay positive, and hold on to what’s truly important. Let the worries go. No matter how we look at it, some outcomes just don’t make sense right away. Choosing to carry on with your goals through this uncertainty is what matters.

Well, there is so much things to do in life to keep me alive and happy. Noticed that life is temporary, jannah is forever, i enclosed my daily life with routines that would give benefits and pahala for now and hereafter. Planning on doing better Qanaah, you never know when you will die kan. I need to do my investment earlier (besides, what keeps me waiting?). what happened if i die tomorrow? I don’t have kids to recite Doa for me, I’m not ready to meet Him, I have a lot of sins that needs me to perform my Taubah prayer. Hmm. :’(

Some people may say, it’s only after we have lost everything that we’re free to do anything. But for me, there will always free time to do anything we want if we really want to. Life is a series of thousands of tiny miracles. I don’t want just to glance at it, i want to feel the miracles. So i have to keep finding and learn what life is all about and live the life to the fullest.

So, are you with me? :)

p/s-  i’m not a good muslim either. Maybe this is one of the way to make me feel better. By writing things i feel. Don’t judge. I don’t think it is proper since you don’t know what i’ve been going through.

take care people :)